84.1 Kilos
I am building my strength and getting more used to my new non smoking self each day that passes. I am avoiding putting myself too much in harms way by placing myself in enviorments where there is a lot of temptation. For sure social drinking with friends who smoke is a big trigger. So I'm exposing myself in small steps.
After dinner I went out last night in the square and ran across a group of friends finishing a dinner sitting outside with espressos and drinks, all smoking. I sat down with them had a barley coffee and chatted for a bit. When I noticed the smoke I thought to myself "Smoke=Choke=Poison=Suicide =Disese-Wrinkels-cough- ugly = Death." I took a deep breath and thought of myself "I am happy, relaxed, free of tobacco, able to breath and smell, healthy, calm , healthy and sexy - I'm a non smoker"
No smoking discussions with my friends just small talk about August holidays, but I felt for a brief moment a silent and small sense of smugness and superiority which I hope they did not sense. I then walked to via Mazzini and treated myself to a chocolate fondent ice cream.
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